My Life So far..

I realise that my posts have been nothing but depressing lately so I intend to stop blogging for a bit.  Until I can get my life back to normal, this will be my last post for now. 

I appreciate everything you guys have done for me & all the kind words that have been said to cheer me up.  Understand that I’m just going through an absurdly rough patch right now but I promise to get back to being the old me that you all know soon.

Please accept my apologies for being such a weirdo lately & I hope you guys don’t forget me in the meantime. 

Hugs & Kisses from me.

Sigh, first they blocked Blogspot. Then Myspace had issues. Now, for some weird reason, I can’t view any Friendster blogs. Ergh! LAMENESS!!!

..I hate having to make major decisions in life even though I know how important it is at this point in my life.   

..I hate knowing that all I want to do is to run away & forget the bad things exist.

..I hate the fact that I give great advice to friends but suck when it comes to applying the same things to myself.

..I hate the fact that I occasionally feel like there’s no one who truly understands me & my idiosyncrasies.

..I hate that I listen to everyone but feel like no one’s listening to me.

..I hate the fact that I need to get back to being the old me.

..I hate being me right now.

I’m sitting in my living room, scooping Ben & Jerry’s in one hand & blogging, trying not to think of the fact that I have to wake up at 6 to get ready for work. Sigh.  I can envision myself needing drinks after work later…

Anyways, my body is rebelling against me right now.  I go to sleep at a respectable hour(11-12 ish) then suddenly I wake up at 3 am every bloody night.  Then I start tossing & turning, which seems to make the mosquitoes start biting & it makes it even harder for me to get back to sleep. Then I start trying the lame stuff..put some music on, read a book, anything really, just to get back to bed. Then I fail miserably & end up going to work the next morning, more tired than I was before. Grrrr..

Oh,oh, another thing, people in Singapore have been telling me that the new HP movie is out over there already!! Dammit! I wanna see the damn movie!! When, Beijing,when the bloody hell will you start showing it?!?!  Errrhhh!

Also, I miss wings..& margaritas..& good company..Meh..

I usually observe things around me & there has been plenty that I’ve learnt through observing.  For example, I’ve seen men with their gal pals checking out other girls but hey, just a word of advise..do it too often & it would end up making your gal pal uncomfortable.  Doing that will eventually make her feel like she’s inadequate.  I’ve also seen women who are very confident most of the time, suddenly have moments of vulnerabilty where what they need the most is assurance from a man that yes, they’re still…(sexy, cute, lovable, funny, etc..etc) hey, I go thru that phase a lot so I understand.  But yeah, sometimes I think men need to just be a bit more ’sensitive’ about the small things.

But this also applies to the girls.  Men have their own insecurities too.  The ones I hear about are usually related to the size of their packages, how they fear no one will like them, how other men judge them based on the type of girls they go for.  These are just a couple of the things I get told.

So what I’m saying is that women need to do their part too.  Assure them.  Don’t do the things you don’t want them to do cos one day, what you said were ok then might come back & bite you back hard in the ass.  Just be yourself & hopefully the men find it enough cos hey, if they don’t…you’re screwed.