My Life So far..

Then:

1) Weekly movie nights

2) Late nights out

3) Starbucks/Beanery/O’Farrell’s coffee binge

4) Dinner with friends

5) No feelings of uncomfortable silences/looks

6) Being myself(a geek,biarch,dumbo etc)

Now:

1) Fear of making others uncomfortable

2) Not knowing what went wrong

3) Uncomfortable silences/stares of death

4) No more movie nights

5) Fear of boring people by being me.

I have this constant fear that people are avoiding me, be it people from Beijing or Singapore (even though I know that everyone is busy with their everyday lives).  It doesn’t help that I haven’t been speaking much to my friends here & back home.  So the fear is always there.  I for one, hate making a decision about the situation but it’s something I have to do.

SoI have basically come to a conclusion that I should definitely chill out & lay low for a bit while I get rid of this irritating fear. 

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