Yet again
*This is a rant about me being insecure and pms-y. So just take everything I say with a whole fistful of salt.
I have been feeling unattractive, unloved, unwanted, unappreciated & unsure about myself. Yes, I know what you will say.."But you are loved,wanted,etc..etc". Heck, just because you said it doesn’t mean I’ll believe it.
I just want my head to be clear for once. No doubts about relationships, work, money. But that’s not going to happen anytime soon is it… No one wants to tell me to my face if I’ve done anything wrong or if I’ve done anything that gets me the cold shoulder from them or if I’m still "in" or if I’m even wanted. People must seriously assume that I’m either a total bitch who’s going to get pissed immediately without any valid reason or someone who’s too fragile to handle the truth.
You know what, even if I was, I’d still want to know. Knowing beats guessing & when I start guessing about things, it can lead to a lot of paranoia & (which I’m extremely prone to) on my part.
This is something I have been saying many,many times & I’m sick of saying it over & over again.
