My Life So far..

Here I am sitting at the front desk, doing nothing other than waiting for the newsletter to finish printing out. Undoubtedly one of the most lamest things I’ve done so far but I gotta do what I gotta do eh..

So far, it has been interesting enough learning ‘the ways’ of this place but I am no where near learning everything. At least I am communicating more with the Satays & the Bongkaks & it helps me to not feel like I’m a total outsider here.

And of course since I’ve been here, I have been given a couple of new names(Chen Cheng is what the kiddies call me-don’t really know why thou’) I have to say that these kids are far easier to deal with than the older ones so it seriously hasn’t been that bad for me.

As for my personal life, I’ve only managed to have a ‘life’ on the weekends or at least on a weekend. I still need to catch up with my dear Punker & Mrs Punker( We should meet up for dinner soon!!) but it will have to wait till I’m not as bogged down as now..

Until next time..

P.s: I suddenly had the urge to call my frens in SG..Hmm..I miss you guys..

*This is a rant about me being insecure and pms-y.  So just take everything I say with a whole fistful of salt.

I have been feeling unattractive, unloved, unwanted, unappreciated & unsure about myself.  Yes, I know what you will say.."But you are loved,wanted,etc..etc".  Heck, just because you said it doesn’t mean I’ll believe it. 

I just want my head to be clear for once.  No doubts about relationships, work, money.  But that’s not going to happen anytime soon is it…  No one wants to tell me to my face if I’ve done anything wrong or if I’ve done anything that gets me the cold shoulder from them or if I’m still "in" or if I’m even wanted.  People must seriously assume that I’m either a total bitch who’s going to get pissed immediately without any valid reason or someone who’s too fragile to handle the truth. 

You know what, even if I was, I’d still want to know.  Knowing beats guessing & when I start guessing about things, it can lead to a lot of paranoia & (which I’m extremely prone to) on my part. 

This is something I have been saying many,many times & I’m sick of saying it over & over again. 

Yes, I’m not in Singapore..So don’t try calling my mobile.

Yes, I’m back in Beijing..So deal with it.

.I last fell really sick.  A record of just 2 days after starting work, I had a cold(my nose is all dry from the snot-blowing), a consistent cough(the kind where after you’re done coughing, you kinda start to hear wheezing sounds) & a high fever of 40d..Erghh.  Yesterday was the worst.  I ended up sleeping with wet towels on my head & my armpits just so I could bring my temperature down.

I seriously don’t remember the last time I felt this bad & for the first time in a long time, I wished that I had someone who’d take care of me. 

I was watching some CSI earlier when suddenly a loud shrieking noise disturbed my ‘peace’.

Looking around the house, I finally found the source of the noise. 

It was…..

CRICKET!!! Shudder*..Ergh, imagine my shock at hearing this damn thing at freaking 4am!!!

Tried to take a clear picture but my hand was shaking cos I was too grossed out.. :S

‘Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond imagination. It is our light more than our darkness which scares us. We ask ourselves – who are we to be brilliant, beautiful, talented, and fabulous. But honestly, who are you to not be so?’

- Marianne Williamson

I just finished Season 3 !! Fracking AWESOME!!! I never thought I would get so sucked into this damn show!!

Garghh!! Can’t wait for Season 4!!

*Hyperventilating!!!

Breathe,breathe,woman!! Dammit..now what am I gonna watch now?!?!

Daddy ND..

plus….

Mummy Shasha…

Equals…

So..who does the kid look like? ^_^

Congratulations you guys. 

Last night was the first time I went to HRC to enjoy Comedy Night by Singapore’s one & only, government-approved drag queen.  As expected, she was a hoot with her jokes, glittery dresses & perfect makeup.  Not to mention all the back up dancers with awesome cleavages.:P

As usual, since Singapore is so bloody small, I saw at least 2 ex-sec schoolmates & got reacquainted with another ex- ITE schoolmate who is probably one of the sweetest guys I’ve gotten to know lately.  Funny thing is I remember seeing him around campus back then but never really spoke to him.  In his words, I was probably too "anti-social". 

Me, anti-social?? Hehehe.. Anyways, just some pictures of me & frens being stupid..

Trying to ‘light up’ some candy!

Typical cover-ur-face shot

Them..

Lan & Me.

Look at me,Look at you.

Smile!

Yet again, cover!

As usual, My parting Shot!