My Life So far..

When I have company or when I’m with friends, I’m always one of the first few people to fall asleep.  It doesn’t matter if we’re in the middle of playing games or partying.  I can always count on my body being sleepy & tired way before the night is over.

But it’s a totally different story when I’m alone.  No matter what I do, I can never get to sleep.  By then, everyone in the house is trying to get up while I try to sleep.  On good days, when I hear my brother’s alarm(which can be heard throughout the damn house even with the doors closed!!), I know that it’s definitely time to really sleep.  When that fails, I start surfing the channels in hopes of finding a show that’s horrible or bloody boring or I start watching some show that I downloaded. 

For example, I have Seasons 1-3 of this show(which shall remain nameless for reasons I’m too lazy to explain) that I’m totally hooked on right now.  I managed to finish season 1 & 2 in 1.5 weeks & have watched 5 episodes of season 3 today alone.  Bad idea, you say.  I know but the show is just soo darn addictive!!  Anyways, people have been telling me that maybe it’s cos I have too much free time & that I should get out more often.  Let me just say…IT DOES NOT HELP!  Getting drunk would be a better idea just cos it totally knocks me out but hey, getting drunk everyday is just plain crazy!  Hehe..

So, I know that my rants online have been pretty lame recently & that I might even scare off my ‘loyal’ readers(wishing that this part was true!) but hey, what else can you expect from me eh? This is just the way I do it.

Oh, by the way, anyone has any ideas on what shows I should watch next besides the obvious? Let me know..PLEASE!!!

*Pls don’t suggest the following:

1) Heroes-waiting for Season 2 if there’s gonna be any

2) Ugly Betty - Same as above

3) CSIs - Cable TV!

4) Cartoons - Bet I watch more than any of you at the moment!

5) Malay serials - You deserve a tight slap for even suggesting that!

Is that the way I behave ?  Is that how I think about certains things in life?  Scary how sometimes reel life can imitate real life.

And it continues….

Finally, thank you & good night.

Hugs & Kisses from me to y’all.

To be continued….

Some of you out there have noticed that I’m in a weird place right now & are worried about me.  Let me first say that this will go away soon.  I don’t know how long but I beg for you to just bear with me for now.

I know that I’m in a weird funk right now.  And I’m really sorry that some of you feel like you did something wrong.  I didn’t mean to make anyone feel that way.  Let me just say that it’s not you, it’s me.  Honestly..

Give me some more time and I’ll be just fine. 

I know. 

I know where I stand in a situation that has been bugging me.  It was not the answer that I wanted to hear but it is the truth. 

I know how it feels now. 

I know I hate saying things that I believe people want to hear from me.

It’s a really nice day out today.  Not too cold, not too warm. 

Sitting in Starbucks, enjoying an espresso frapp with friends around chatting about movies & games even if it mostly doesn’t make any sense to me but still, fun enough. 

So..it’s 2 more days till my birthday & I’m worried that I’ll be depressed again.  Which really sucks cos it’s supposed to be one of the happier days in anyone’s life.  So I’ve decided that this time round, I am just going to walk around town as much as I can & not stay at home cos that seems to be one of the factors.

Bwahaha!  No depression!! Never!

Kata-kata boleh melukakan atau menghancuri semangat seseorang. 

Banyak yang telah dikatakan dan aku tidak mahu mengulangi kata-kata itu lagi.

Kau menang.

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Erghh..melayu aku sarap! Emo jugak pulak tu!

Grrrr….It’s cold in here.  I’ve forgotten how cold it can get.  My nose is killing me & I can’t seem to stop sneezing.  There’s something in the air that’s making me very sensitive.

I crashed at Punker’s place & was surprised at how cold it was.  I mean, I should have expected it but still, the coldness just crept up to me.  But I did get good rest.  5 hours of sleep is good.  Better than not sleeping eh..

I wonder what I’ll be doing today.  The weather’s not as clear & sunny like yesterday though..

But you know what? 

Damn, I’m happy to be back.

I’M EXCITED! VERY EXCITED!!! YaY YaY!!!

*Starts doing the Chicken Dance while laughing out loud!!!