Just something I feel like doing
I know it’s in the middle of a work day but I just need to say that I’ve just been hit by the weirdest feeling.
The past week has been basically a rollercoaster ride of mixed feelings for me. I’m facing one of the harder moments in my life right now & I don’t really know how to deal with it.
I can accept the fact that I am not an efficient worker here in Beijing & am pretty useless when it comes to marketing. I can even accept the fact that I’m not really the best colleague/ friend that a person can hope for.
I just can’t accept the fact that I do not know where to start to improve the situation. I can’t accept the fact that my personal life has to be dictated over by others who actually have no right to do so. Just because I gave in once or twice, it doesn’t mean that I’ll keep giving in. There is a limit.
I spoke to some people before & I’ve heard the arguments from both sides. Both sides make sense but to do one thing rather than the other just makes things even more complicated for me.
I don’t want to just please other people to make my life bearable. I just want to please myself for once.
