My Life So far..

I’ve been trying to update this blog for the past week but my brain does not seem to want to cooperate.

So, I’m going to just write nonsense stuff that pops into my head.

1) Body Shop: What a disappointment it was when I went down to 3.3 to check the ‘first’ Body Shop.  Let me tell you what the shop had..

- Mango Body wash

- Eucalyptus Facial Wash/Toner/Moisturiser

plus some other men’s products.  The shop was not actually The Body Shop.  It was just a shop that had SOME Body Shop’s stuff. Hah! Liars!!

2) I want to change my hairstyle but I have no clue on what would suit me.. It’s been quite some time since I’ve changed anything other than my hair colour so I’m considering a few options.

3) I need to put my finances in order.  It sucks running out of moolah when I need it the most.  Considering that I suck at the whole "save your money" thingy, I’m gonna need advice..let me know people!

4) I really have to go get my foot checked out.  I’m sick of it stinging with sharp pain everytime I take a step.  I’m sick of not being able to wear anything other than my torn, well-used sneakers to work cos my toe is too swollen & I’m sick of not being able to go dancing becos of it so..yeah, I’m really gonna go to the hospital ( but only after payday). 

5) I need to try & sleep normal hours instead of the usual 4 hours a night..it’s finally taking its toll on me & I dun like how it makes my brain feel mushed up most days.

6) Start talking more chinese.  I’ve been slacking off & am getting worse. Nowadays, when people speak to me in Chinese, sometimes, I have difficulty understanding even thou it’s something simple. So..

7) Ferrari’s gone back to Sg..No more "Extra" in the office for abt 2 weeks..

& finally,

Touchy Feely is still irritating the shit outta me so there….

I’m surrounded by sick people & when I say sick, I mean the runny-nosed, phlegmy coughing & lots of sneezing.  All this is happening in the office & since the circulation of air is not what we would call fantastic, I can safely say that the viruses in the air must be totally over the top!

I don’t wanna be sick…not again..so die viruses, die!!!

Well, as you know, I’ve been talking about my dad coming in to Beijing for work & of course, in the course of time, see me as well since he’s here.

When I met him on his first night in Beijing, I got a gift! He said that it was a belated birthday present from him & Mom.  Guess what? They bought me a phone!  Sigh, they do love me! Besides that, dad brought other goodies for me.  I know some people wouldn’t consider it real great goodies but hey, getting Maggi Mee is just as good as giving me chocolate!!!

Anyways, I’ve been having dinner & drinks with dad the past few days & we’ve been talking about home, mom, the lil’ ones at home.  And the major thing is that I have finally told him about what happened to me & my brothers when we were still kids.  I don’t really know why but I guess I felt that it was time to tell the truth.  Boy, did that feel good!

Hah! It’s easy to bring my dad around for dinner & stuff cos,

1) He likes to eat mostly Western food ( give him meat, potatoes & bread..he’s set)

&

2) He likes to chill out in pubs & places which have beer (which to a certain extent, is in abundance around here)

We had dinner with some friends tonight at Tangstella & damn, the food was GOOD! I even finished the pasta that came with the dish I ordered & I’m not that big a pasta fan!

But seriously, I was glad that dad came down this time round cos I was missing the dysfunctional people in my life..just a lil bit..So cool! I should be seeeing more of him anyways due to the nature of his new job…

By the way,  did I mention that Mum might be coming down in Jun or so, & she’s bringing Zoran & Amira??  That fucking rocks, I tell ya!! I miss my lil’ siblings!!!

I found out today that :

1) Having spicy/oily hotpot makes me go to the toilet…a lot!

2) Drinking redbull is a no-no on an empty stomach

& finally,

3) Drinking Redbull, THEN, 2 mugs of strong coffee on an empty stomach is A HELL NO!!!!!

I’m weak from all the visits to the toilet & weak from an overdose of caffeine & watever it is that is in Redbull.  I’m feeling light-headed from puking.  I need a nap before I go see my dad…3 more hours before Mr Pavlovic aka Dad arrives…sigh…

Time by Raymond Weils. 2 am.

And today’s headline news, I am still wide awake.  This is the 4th straight night where I’m still bright-eyed in the wee hours of the morning.

I still don’t remember when I started this weird cycle of sleep.  I know that this has happened a lot of times to me already but usually after the 2nd day, I normally just cease to function as a human & turn into a walking zombie.

At the current moment, I’m trying to make myself go to sleep by watching Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings & Dirty Dancing.  I know, that is a whole lot of movies to watch but hey, I’ll try anything!

Earlier, I had chatted a bit with Dunendu for a bit & he suggested either camomile tea or xanax.  I don’t like the smell of camomile(thanks to working at Dome!Too much camomile tea orders!). As for xanax, according to Dunendu, it’s illegal unless a doctor prescribes you it so I’m outta luck there. Then I chatted a bit with Boy who had to rush off to work or something like that. 

Anyways, it sucks being the only one awake at the moment.  I’m very tempted to just bust into the rooms here & start jumping on everyone’s bed!! That would be sooooo fun!

I mentioned to someone once that one should never live with colleagues or family.  Not only because you’ll have to learn all over to live with strangers in a sense but also that you’ll have to start paying attention & be sensitive to everyone’s needs/beliefs/religion. I should have listened to my own advice right from the start. 

Anyways,one thing that I’m facing now is dealing with the COLD SHOULDER treatment. I do not know the exact reason why I’m getting the treatment but I’m guessing it’s because of one the following:

1) I didn’t go back to the apartment for a couple of days, choosing instead to crash at friends’.

2) I said something that I wasn’t supposed to say or I didn’t say something that I was supposed to say.

3) I do not know how to act/behave/entertain house guests, therefore I’m not a hospitable host.

4) All of the above.

I can come up with a million other reasons but I’m inclined to go with option number….1 or 4…heh, I don’t know.

So I have been feeling like shit for the past 3 days due to one of these reasons & it’s only been going downhill ever since.   

I know I can always try & "defend" myself but I realise that I’m fighting a losing battle.    I thought I could just brush this off but now, I give up.  White flag is out!  Fine, you win..So I accept defeat.  I’m going to just try & initiate conversations but if it still doesn’t work, then fuck it.   

I’m sitting in the apartment, just watching the guys play a game called, "Betrayal @ House on the hill". Hmmmphh..it’s a game that requires thinking & definately not my kind of game!

Today is Sunday.  Sunday is game day.  Game day can be anything.  The guys might play "Dungeons & Dragons", or they might play board games like "Zombies" or "Apples to Apples".  When the guys start to play, they’re almost oblivious to anything else.  I think that’s too cute!

Anyways, most of the time, I think they’re real geeks but fun geeks!

I was in the toilet this morning when I stubbed my toe on the doorstopper.

Now, what the fuck is a doorstopper doing in a freaking toilet?!?!  Which idiot came up with the damn plan?!?

Anyways, now my toe has swelled 2x its size & has interesting colours on it.  Being on my feet the whole day didn’t help either!  It just progressed from sharp pain to a lingering, mind-blowing kind.  The kind that makes you scream everytime you put any weight on it or when someone accidentally brushes their feet against mine!

Why, oh,why is all this happening right now!! First my phone, then my toe. What next, my job?!?

Bloody hell does it hurt right now!

I lost my freaking phone in the plane on the way to Beijing!!!!!!!!!

So, people, let me know your numbers again…

Thanks….