Crossing the thin line
I pride myself on being able to be thick-skinned & immune to insults/snide comments given to me. This particular "skill" has been honed over the years & years of "training" provided by family, friends & colleagues. After undergoing the lifetime training, hell yeah, I’m be ready for all you mo’ fos’ out there.
Occassionally, I’d start letting the fortress walls down. This is usually when I get comfortable enough with the people around me. Then whatever they say just go by me without any effect. These people get away lightly with a bit of warning but hey, no problems.
Today, the exact opposite happened. There are some new people in my life now that I see daily. These are the people who do not know me well enough. These are the people who, in my opinion, have no freaking right to say anything about me.
If you have been reading my blog, you would know that I’m very affected by a few things etc my weight, my size & my inability to read/write Chinese.
Today, someone crossed 2 of those lines. Saying I’m huge or calling me "Big sister" because of my size, still bearable. To say out that one should learn all the bad stuff from me, asshole!! To rub salt into the wound by saying I’m of no use because of my Chinese or lack of Chinese, FUCKER!!!
Do they even realise that it took all the courage I had to even consider working for long-term in China especially since I’m not Chinese?? Do they know what shit I had to go through to be able to dowhat I’m doing now?!? No! What makes them think that it’s their god-given right to put me down that way?
I know some people are going to say that I’m too sensitive(yes, you 2..I know u guys). In your defense, I admit I’ve been sensitive but hear me out.
Imagine it was you who had these issues. Imagine having to deal with this everyday for the past 6 years. Having people put you down everyday just because you weren’t "perfect". It drains you slowly until one day…you just..SNAP!
That’s what happened to me. I snapped!!!
