My Life So far..

Do you ever suddenly feel alone even though you’re constantly surrounded by people? 

Recently, I have been feeling that way.  It usually hits me when I’m in a room full of people, enjoying the company.  Out of nowhere, the feeling starts to creep up & hits me full force soon after.  I guess that it’s just one of those things that happens to someone when they least expect it.

I thought about this & I figured that this time round, I have been having these feelings a whole lot more than usual. No, I’m not depressed about missing Hari Raya(even though I would have liked to eat all the goodies that they have at home).  But more importantly is I don’t get to express certain things that I want to as freely. 

Everyone expects me to be this jovial, happy-go-lucky girl who seems to never have any worries but I do worry sometimes.  Sometime I worry about the stupidest things that are not even worth thinking about, sometimes I worry about my future, you know, things like where I’m heading, what I’m going to turn out to be like etc..mayb I’m just rambling here but what to do? This is the way that I am. 

Okay, I’m gonna go curl up somewhere & just be a total veg…bye…

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