My Life So far..

  I had this conversation earlier with my colleagues today:

Mo: "When I first saw you, I thought you were unfriendly"

Me: "Yeah, that’s what people tell me. Usually the favourite descriptions are "Bitch,Stuck-up, Too Serious & well, Bitch.."

Vern: "Yeah, I remember seeing you the first time & I thought you were this really unfriendly,serious girl"

*Just to say that I don’t remember the exact words we said to each other but the above pretty much covers it..*

See what I mean.  That’s the vibe I give out. Then I realised something.  In S’pore, I would always be perceived as a "bitch" because of the way I am.  The way I behave, talk & even look..people immediately see the bad side.  How many people can actually say that they know me, the real me?

These thoughts have been stuck in my head for god knows how long.  Every time I tell myself not to think about it, it keeps climbing back up from this lil’ space that I’ve set aside for thoughts like this(negative thoughts,"I’m fat,I’m fat & ugly..I shouldn’t have done something like that etc."

I’ve done things that I’m not proud of but I learnt from my mistakes.  I know everyone has gone through shit at some point in their lives that they’re not proud of but that’s them. I’m..well, I’m me. 

I could go on but I’m just going to end this here & just try & get the evil thoughts out of my head…

By the way,I’m in one of my rambling moods…..

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