My Life So far..

Ok, I know I promised that I would be more regular yet again but due to certain things that have happened in the recent months, I am shutting down this account by January. 

I realised that I am not one of the more eloquent people on blog land but as some of you guys know, life has been pretty up & down for me.  It’s just one of those things that make you realise what you have been missing until it happens to you. 

I am in a relationship now. I haven’t told anyone but maybe one or two from back home.  I know that this is the cowardly way of telling certain people but honestly, I am sorry & yet not that sorry.  I apologise if you think that I’ve been leading you on but I am happy.  I haven’t been this happy in a long time & it sucks that I have to be all guilty for feeling happy.  I just want everyone to wish me all the best & to not make me feel like I have fucked things up.  So do wish me all the best ok.

Anyways, back to the fact that I am closing this account..I have to do it because I have no patience to maintain 3 different accounts….so bye Friendster!

I’m back.  All exhausted but renewed in some ways.

It’s been a very looong, turbulous month so far with all the drinking & late nights spent with new friends but I have to say that it has definitely forced me to meet new people which is something I haven’t been doing.  I am getting better at making small talk, feeling a bit more confident about myself.  Hell, I think I’ve met people who have  managed to make me not miss home much.

So, yeah..I’m back & I will try to blog a bit more in the coming days.

Hugs & Kisses.

I realise that my posts have been nothing but depressing lately so I intend to stop blogging for a bit.  Until I can get my life back to normal, this will be my last post for now. 

I appreciate everything you guys have done for me & all the kind words that have been said to cheer me up.  Understand that I’m just going through an absurdly rough patch right now but I promise to get back to being the old me that you all know soon.

Please accept my apologies for being such a weirdo lately & I hope you guys don’t forget me in the meantime. 

Hugs & Kisses from me.

Sigh, first they blocked Blogspot. Then Myspace had issues. Now, for some weird reason, I can’t view any Friendster blogs. Ergh! LAMENESS!!!

..I hate having to make major decisions in life even though I know how important it is at this point in my life.   

..I hate knowing that all I want to do is to run away & forget the bad things exist.

..I hate the fact that I give great advice to friends but suck when it comes to applying the same things to myself.

..I hate the fact that I occasionally feel like there’s no one who truly understands me & my idiosyncrasies.

..I hate that I listen to everyone but feel like no one’s listening to me.

..I hate the fact that I need to get back to being the old me.

..I hate being me right now.

I’m sitting in my living room, scooping Ben & Jerry’s in one hand & blogging, trying not to think of the fact that I have to wake up at 6 to get ready for work. Sigh.  I can envision myself needing drinks after work later…

Anyways, my body is rebelling against me right now.  I go to sleep at a respectable hour(11-12 ish) then suddenly I wake up at 3 am every bloody night.  Then I start tossing & turning, which seems to make the mosquitoes start biting & it makes it even harder for me to get back to sleep. Then I start trying the lame stuff..put some music on, read a book, anything really, just to get back to bed. Then I fail miserably & end up going to work the next morning, more tired than I was before. Grrrr..

Oh,oh, another thing, people in Singapore have been telling me that the new HP movie is out over there already!! Dammit! I wanna see the damn movie!! When, Beijing,when the bloody hell will you start showing it?!?!  Errrhhh!

Also, I miss wings..& margaritas..& good company..Meh..

I usually observe things around me & there has been plenty that I’ve learnt through observing.  For example, I’ve seen men with their gal pals checking out other girls but hey, just a word of advise..do it too often & it would end up making your gal pal uncomfortable.  Doing that will eventually make her feel like she’s inadequate.  I’ve also seen women who are very confident most of the time, suddenly have moments of vulnerabilty where what they need the most is assurance from a man that yes, they’re still…(sexy, cute, lovable, funny, etc..etc) hey, I go thru that phase a lot so I understand.  But yeah, sometimes I think men need to just be a bit more ’sensitive’ about the small things.

But this also applies to the girls.  Men have their own insecurities too.  The ones I hear about are usually related to the size of their packages, how they fear no one will like them, how other men judge them based on the type of girls they go for.  These are just a couple of the things I get told.

So what I’m saying is that women need to do their part too.  Assure them.  Don’t do the things you don’t want them to do cos one day, what you said were ok then might come back & bite you back hard in the ass.  Just be yourself & hopefully the men find it enough cos hey, if they don’t…you’re screwed. 

Well, 2 weeks of hectic activities & ceremonies are finally over. And to celebrate that fact, I went drinking the last 2 nights.. Not the best idea but hey, a girl’s gotta let her hair down & have some fun, eh..

Anyways, I finally clicked with the lecturers as they could see that I was a cool cat & that I could actually get what they were saying( Imagine a whole patio filled with white people & chinese people. Now imagine someone saying stuff that involved feltching & dirty sachez’s. Guess which group would have a reaction & which wouldn’t )Heheheheh…

Last night, when I was out, I got told that I had great breasts(yet again) & a nice ass(something new). Made me laugh my ass off just because it seemed to be the standard pick-up line here in BJ by these white guys. Do they really think that a few lines like that is going to make anyone swoon & immediately agree to whatever they ask of us? Honestly, are the girls here really easy lays?!?

After a long day at work, cleaning up the abode & a sumptuos Korean BBQ dinner at Ai Jiang Shan, I’m satiated.No doubt the day was filled with a lot of ‘Kamsahamida’s’ & ‘Neh’s’, it was not all that bad.

Anyways, it has been a week of stress-filled situations with people.  We have the ones where a person needs to realise that it is not attractive to sit with legs wide open & farting is not cool when there is company.  Also, touching is a big no-no when I am not familiar with you even if you work with me. People should learn that there’s no use saying stuff to gain sympathy in front of me especially if you’re in the wrong..unless you want me to be a total bitch about the fact that you’re wrong.

So, the upcoming week is also gonna be a long week filled with jam-packed activities(Water Day, Grad ceremony etc)and more stress-filled situations with people(end of the school year).

Yay!

Anyways, on a happier note, before I forget..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to all the June ‘babies’!!!

(ToonZ, BaryBoy,Alasse, Dylan,Nes)

*Starts to sing off key..

Happy Birthday to UUUUUU,Happy birthday to UUUUUUU

Happy Birthday to all UUUUUUU people!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!

Hugs & Kisses